While clearing my Chakras, I found a fear stuck in my energies.
Fear of Not being worthy of creating the desires of my Heart
I don't mean ALL. ANY.
They were right there, churning in the Sacral, Solar Plexus and Heart
Not in a big way, but I could feel the ouchies. Years of
clearing...still in there...a tiny bit.
Many of you might be feeling this
Hidden away, unnoticed;
As your friend who "keeps it real" but you can no longer afford to
buy the lies she's selling;
I think everyone goes through their own version of a Dark Night of the Soul, at least once.
It seems our country (the US) is having one of her very own right now. This has been building for quite some time. We all chose to be here now to help her through it, to remind her WHO SHE IS and that she is loved.
We are seeing and hearing a lot that makes us cringe and scream. And cry. When you can remember that no one is actually beating the hell out of you, give your adrenals a rest. Breathe.
Love comes in many forms. Not all are romantic. The best include respect and kindness. How do you show your loved ones that you care? How do you want love to be shown to you?
A few days ago, I set about the loving task of meditating. When I don't set time aside every day to meditate, I notice a love-hate relationship play out before my eyes. And, I feel disjointed. Meditation is my way to defrag my system. Notice what works for you! In this particular meditation, I needed to write.
When disaster strikes, sometimes your only option is to
surrender and bow to life. Here’s what I
learned and, in some cases, remembered about myself when I softened to the
chaos of destruction and creation…my own personal Big Bang! Some of these lessons may sound familiar or
seem like no-brainers, but notice if they're part of your personal experience or if you have forgotten, as I did.
- I am more patient than I have ever given myself
- I am tenacious, fearless and strong.
- My Inner Bitch is a Rock Star Goddess and I don’t
celebrate – or party with!
The Hot Series is not a style of Yoga I would
have chosen for myself, so when the opportunity to learn and teach this style
showed up unexpectedly, I chose to accept .
I am sharing my experiences in the Hot Studio not to promote or critique
this style of Yoga, but to give Voice to what I discovered about myself, and
the life I was creating, through this practice.
Yoga showed up for me at a time of great uncertainty. I had created my Energy Practice and had been
teaching Nia for a few years, but everything I had accomplished in both areas
felt like a struggle.
Every day is an opportunity to allow the mind to wander into
a beautiful garden, filled with rolling hills, springtime flowers, cool
breezes, birds singing and blue skies filled with sunshine. But how often do we create a war zone in our
minds, full of muddy manholes, fear and dread, the sound of loud weapons firing
followed by bigger weapons firing even more loudly and dull, gray skies. Which world would you rather create? Where would you rather live?
It is possible to live and love in a world filled with war,
but it is ego-driven and filled with fear.
I remember walking into work one Monday morning, while I was
in my twenties, when a fellow co-worker greeted me saying, “Only four more days
until Friday.” That statement slapped me
in the face as I realized I agreed with him.
I didn’t know it at the time, but these words would later be a driving
factor for me, a measure against how I would choose to do or not do anything I
At the time, I thought I was making the most of my career
and building a life for myself. But I was a hot mess.
Spring is coming! Can
you feel it? Sleeplessness. Restlessness. A thousand ideas entering your mind all at
once until you feel completely muddled. You
might not feel quite ready to act on these notions, but creativity is awakening
As energy begins to surge through the Earth, our Bodies’
energies begin to reflect this movement.
The flowers of spring are not yet in bloom, but the soil is thinking
about it. The reserves built up during
the dormant winter months will be put to use soon.
In December, Nature begins to slow down into a lull and then
into a long Winter’s Sleep: The leaves
have fallen from the trees, the Harvest is complete, and the Earth rests. These should all be cues for us to follow
suit. Winter can be a time of
celebration and of quiet reflection, but if we are not careful to listen to our
own Natural Rhythms, it can also be a time of sickness.
During winter months, your Body will demand the rest it
needs, whether or not you choose to provide it willingly.
An ‘Active Memory’ has an emotional charge to it, eliciting
a physical response that is so ingrained that it feels like a natural reaction,
but it is not. Many of these memories are stored in the limbic (emotional)
brain and the amygdala from a young age and since there is no memory of a
different reaction, a ‘natural’ reaction is assumed. But when the underlying
cause is discovered, the memory that is causing this deep-rooted reaction is
often not pleasant, which is why it has been hidden from one’s awareness.